Owly Eyes

Stessors of Different Sorts

tiffsammich — Thu, 12 Jan 2012 21:25:09 +0000

This will mark the first post of the new year! I think.
If my memory serves me right… (which it may not given, I’m still human) I have yet to write much of anything recently.

Life has been so rich.
Rich in bullshit.

I’m a kidding. It has not but as my dear friend Jesus described, we (my circle of friends) are all going through a phase of transformation.

A few days ago I realized, I could afford to live on my own. So why haven’t I? I suppose living at home has been comfortable but not necessarily in the mental sense. Since I have been in SF over the past week, I have come to love having quite time and space to myself. To not have anyone tell me what I need to do or what needs to be cleaned, is really quite relaxing. Don’t get me wrong, I know my mom means well but sometimes… that shit just drives me up the wall.

Ever since Tuesday, I have been thinking about my future apartment. I need to make arrangements to see some of the places that I have looked into but SHOOT man. This is exciting yet scary. I’ve never lived on my own before! My concerns are whether I will be able to work 29 hours a week and still go to school successfully.
I was talking with Alyssa and well, I believe that if I get my focus in order I will be okay with working the hours I need to make rent and putting in the other time for school. I thought about this schedule.

Mondays: OFF –> This is the day I use to take care of errands, personal appointments, hair cuts, watching a movie, etc.
Tuesday: Work –> If I have energy, read and exercise afterward
Wednesday: Work a half shift then go to school from 12pm – 4pm in O-side
Thursday: Work –> If I have energy, read and exercise afterward
Friday: OFF –> Use this day to work on assignments for the following week, reading, preparation for clinical –> plus exercise
Saturday: OFF –> 12 hour clinical rotation in SD
Sunday: Work –> Exercise, settle in with some TV or a Movie

My concerns, as I began earlier, involve me knowing whether or not I will be able to handle this work load.
Yes, my days seem as though they’ll very structured BUT this sort of schedule will not be permanent. I have to look at the bright side, only 4 months or so I’ll be DONE. Then I’ll be free to take my board exam, THEN apply for a real job.

I can do this.
I can FUCKING DO THIS.

Sugar Tablets

tiffsammich — Thu, 29 Dec 2011 22:04:18 +0000

All I seem to care about is making art, discovering new music and becoming a healthier me.

Right now,
Fuck the rest.
This is my time.
I’m going to take advantage of it while I still have the opportunity to.
The rest will soon follow.

Sundays

tiffsammich — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 23:12:41 +0000

I want to learn how to pole dance.
Then learn how to do it WELL.

Carry Out

tiffsammich — Sun, 13 Nov 2011 21:02:22 +0000

Lots of changes,
Hopefully still in the right direction.

Here’s a short list:
-More art shows
-New pieces
-Brandon
-4HB first week complete
-More sleep
-Burnt out on school
-More time at home

I’m going to make it through.

All The Wrong Things

tiffsammich — Tue, 04 Oct 2011 00:00:22 +0000

Sometimes I feel I worry about all the wrong things. I currently have a list of worries on my plate that could just about knock a two ton man into a crater and he’d still have room to wiggle.

I really don’t understand why I give a fuck. I suppose it’s just part of being human? Or part of being socialized? I don’t have an answer but I may as well start venting because I don’t really want to have anyone else I know hear about this crap, not like they need it.

1.) I am for one, really nervous about what may/is happening to my body. I haven’t had a period since July and I didn’t have any sort of sexual relations with anyone until last month at the end of September, even then so, I used Plan B just to be sure. STILL, what the fuck!? On top of that, I have noticed something different about my personal odor. I DON’T CARE HOW GROSS THIS MAY SOUND TO ANYONE, it fucking happens and a lot of women out there know what the hell I am talking about. Something just doesn’t sit well. Hopefully my doctor will be able to tell me what is going on at my appointment tomorrow morning.

2.) I am not sure that I have enough energy to get myself through this next week.

3.) I’m spreading myself too thin.

4.) I really like the new guy I am dating but I don’t know how much longer he’ll be stationed here in my city nor do I know if I am comfortable enough to bring him around my closer friends. I just haven’t felt the water out just yet, you know?

5.) My lack of self control is really starting to weaken the ground beneath my feet.

I can’t go on like this any longer.

10:34pm Sunday Night

tiffsammich — Mon, 03 Oct 2011 05:35:16 +0000

What shold I be doing right now? Finishing up my DCT for tomorrow’s clinical rotation.
What AM I doing right now? Rolling my change.

Day 3

tiffsammich — Thu, 22 Sep 2011 04:39:28 +0000

Well, so far so good. I can hardly wait to start posting my weekly results for all of my measurments. Hopefully there is something to be proud about. If there is one thing that I have noticed about the diet thus far is that I have NOT been feeling bloated after eating a considerablly large meal. I have always dislike that, “OH MY GOD… I CANNOT BUDGE feeling…” and so far, I have yet to experience that despite how big my portions have been! I LOVE THIS. I am need to start looking into a calcium and magnesium replacement because I am certain that I am not getting enough of either but that’ll soon change.

Harajuku Moment

tiffsammich — Tue, 20 Sep 2011 08:22:28 +0000

I’ve been searching for a solution to my metabolic instability and well ladies and gents, I think I’ve found it.

Now, I hadn’t been doing a whole lot of research on my own but when I had dinner with my friend Katie, she told me about this diet she was going to try. I thought, “FUCK DIETS.” Right? I have always known diets to be restrictive and hard to follow but I suppose, that’s part of the challenge? Anywhoo, skipping right to the point. I’m going to attempt to follow the rules to The 4-Hour Body. They’re pretty simple in that for the majority of my week (6 days) I will consume nothing but meals consisting of protein, legumes and vegetables. THEN, on my 7th day I will go balls to the walls with whatever I want. No restrictions, no counting calories (that actually never happens on this diet), no nothin’, not ever. This will mark the first diet I have ever decided to commit to and well, I want to track my progress. THEREFORE, I have decided to start a food blog and log my bodily measurements on a weekly basis. I started everything today and I wish I would have taken a photo of my meals but oh well, I will certain start this with my next meal.

WISH me luck world.
But more so, wish me the discipline I strive to embrace.
More to come very soon!

In Bed All Day

tiffsammich — Tue, 16 Aug 2011 22:07:02 +0000

Thanks to me being so coordinate I’m proud to say I’ve stubbed my toe in the worst possible way. I hope that by now, you realize… I’m not proud of this because it flippin’ BLOWS.

Never the less, I am going to reflect on the things I’ve accomplished today:
-Made an appt. with the vet for Sydney
-Emailed JFeather some sample photos of my work
-Learned how to watermark my photos
-Started my school work early (got some flashcards done)
-Called Uncle Frank and thanked him for the Pamam bag
-Emailed/Contacted: JB, KT, Erika and Thomas about hanging out
-Sent Darci out with $$$ in her pocket to do my bidding (run my errands)

and now a few more things to check off my list:

-Research textbooks for Darc
-Send flowers
-Write letters

then get ready for din din at the grandparent’s house

Alternative Destinations

tiffsammich — Fri, 12 Aug 2011 03:49:40 +0000

So, so much traveling. I love it.
We’ve got:
-Las Vegas
-SF
-Nassau
-Grand Turk
-Freeport
-SF (round II)

This summer has been quite a trip, no pun intended.